There are no field notes for the debriefing session held yesterday with a group of seven middle school teachers and one administrator. The graduate assistant, who records hours of what is said in mentor lessons and the debriefings that follow, was back in the classroom delivering the lesson so that the host teacher could sit in with the group. We forgot to turn on the mike that would record our session, and we failed to get exit slips. No typist, no recording, no exit slips.
Just as well. This retelling will be quite enough honesty for me. I'm glad I won't have to reread a transcript of the session. These field notes are written following a night of reflection.
I"ll follow three threads here: the opposing filters through which we view these lessons, problems posed by the lack of a common vocabulary, and our delivery system.
Monthly, we step into a host classroom to deliver a lesson; we do our best to tailor the lesson to the host teacher's curriculum. We hire substitute teachers so that the other teachers in our program of professional development can step into the classroom to observe. Observations are followed by a group discussion which is supposed to be guided by some questions we have carefully considered. We are trying to create a model of observations followed by conversation which can be sustained by the school after we leave.
Yesterday's lesson was derailed by a lack of common vocabulary. I was to be in a social studies teacher's classroom. He is a model teacher in that he sees himself as a teacher of writing; he embeds extended writing assignments into his units. He has welcomed our help since he has to read 140 student essays, and he wants to read interesting, engaging lessons. We arranged for me to step in after students had done a first draft of a retelling of the Boston Massacre with a required 25 sentences, ten facts, and five uses of propaganda. Most of the pieces were drafted as first person narratives from the point of view of a Loyalist.
I prepared a lesson designed to help students understand the power of revision to "give them something to say" rather than "having to say something." (Thanks, John Dewey.) Students did three five minute rewrites of their drafts changing the point of view, genre, and audience. The student writing, shared with me on Google.docs, was crisp and entertaining and peppered with the required facts and propaganda. They offered clear possibilities for revision.
However, I had known my lesson would be problematic even before I left for the school. I had gone online to check homework for these students and learned that they had been writing for four days on this project and were required to have been finished the day before I arrived. The host teacher's concept of a first draft was a paper that was finished except for editing, as opposed to my idea of first drafts which are messy first runs. I was stepping into his classroom at the wrong time, confirmed by the student who volunteered the comment, "I wish you were here when we started writing!"
I certainly wish I had picked up on our different stances on first drafts in our back and forth email conversations, but at that point the lesson wasn't entirely off the tracks. A perceptive teacher noticed how much the radical revisions related to RAFT prompts: role (point of view), audience, format (genre), and task (retell the Boston Massacre.) We could have pursued this in debriefing as a way for the content area teachers to adapt this lesson and left the session with some positive vibes.
However, the protocol questions for debriefing were abandoned. In the time for clarifying questions, a content area teacher asked me if I expected her to teach this lesson in her classroom. I think she went on to give reasons why she couldn't. A yes or no question, certainly, but I slipped into awkward defenses and justifications. I was painfully aware that I lack the necessary skill to redirect the conversation. A team builder at the beginning of every debriefing and another look at our protocol are in order. We clearly don't have the model for a classroom teacher to sit where I sat yesterday. I wouldn't want any teacher to feel bruised and battered.
I saw yesterday's lesson through the filter of belief that I should be teaching students directly. I make it a point to leave the classroom with student writing in hand, demonstrating that almost all students have something to say and will say something. There's nothing wrong with that if I were the classroom teacher. But the teachers at yesterday's school have been repeatedly asking me to deliver lessons that speak to the teachers--very specific, targeted lessons that they can use themselves. How ironic! I deliver a lesson in revision, and these teachers ask me to re-vision, look again, at the way I deliver my own lessons.
Our conversation with the principal following the debriefing gives me a vision for a different form of delivery. After all, we are here to make decisions about what innovative professional development delivery looks like. The principal had been considering ideas to get all teachers on board with increasing writing in their classrooms, but he was concerned his current ideas were too rigid. He spoke of requiring his teachers to try one Write to Learn strategy per week and visiting about the implementation of the strategy in the collaborative teams that have been established at his school. He would like to see discussion of what good responses look like. We left the conversation with our offer to provide such strategies weekly, with specific ideas for the teachers we serve. It is possible for us to check homework online so we can offer a RAFT idea to the teacher studying skeletal systems or the Boston Massacre, admit slip ideas for the teacher studying Japanese internment. The mentor lesson could feature a teacher using one of the strategies, the debriefing could focus on the implementation of the strategies.
It's not easy to move from classroom teacher mode to thinking partner mode. It is not easy to change my concept of professional development from one of the expert drops in one time to one of I"m here to listen to you. I am extremely grateful that the team is bringing our trainer back on board. I began this blog post thinking that I had failed the program, but am a little gentler on myself here at its close. I'm making missteps, but I'm paying attention.